Let's start over.

Terribly sorry for what've happened that night. Sigh, i deserve all that i've got.

Sorry for the past and what i've said on my blog. I know you do deserve better. After last night's text message, i realise one thing, that you've forgiven me uncountable times for my uncountable mistakes. I really dk what to say to you, except , thank you so much, iloveyou.  And the fixing cube made me think of a lot of things that i haven  been thinking, it actually helped me alot. Thanks.

And sieanwee, thanks for sending me that text and helping me scold low lifers at my tag.

I owe alot people alot. Its time i grow up.Prolly doing sales at taka, filling in for my sister. I really need to get out of my house. Its killing me, but why don't i feel like going out anym. My moods' just not right. Going to sleep nao. haven been sleeping for nights.

Ciaos peepos.~

Sometimes when things are going wrong,

Just take a really long nap.

And i meant really long.

A change of hairstyle , nice ? (: Haven got it finish yet though, just trying out. going another round w mom next week prolly?

Going rounding later. Tired of life. Stayed home and sleep due to cramps. Alcohol at night though, just couldn't get enough , keep sneaking them....

Not much happening lately, want my life to take a turn. A detour to somewhere more happening. Do i look like i put on makeup? Kay, i like really need to slim down, my thighs are getting much fatter. Keep crying myself to sleep these days, foolish much ? Having shitty hangover on most afternoon after i'm awake. You'll ask why and get angry, have you any idea what it means to put yourself in my shoes. Forget it. Give me a few days, i promise you .

Ciaos people.

You were the one who once ask me to

Hold on,

Now you're the one who ask me to

Move on.

What do i really mean to you nao..?

                                                                                                                                                                  

Tipsy.

Currently into Tik Tok by Kesha. \m/

Sorry peepos for not updating often,haven got time in my hands (: As usuals, went out to slack with people b'cause i've spent all my money the last few days on shopping. Yeah i know i gotta work alr... Aarons' working too. I've got no moolahs.

 Pictures from the past days. Still got alot though, lazy to post it. Hah, seriously, laziness can kill. Laziness stops me from earning money, getting my butt off from bed and mostly, walking. -,-

Yesterday someone motor me home when its raining. Thanks ^^ Comeon people, its halfway through the holidays and i didn't earn a cent. Lobangs ? Thought of being a waitress everyday after school next year, heard from jingping that its tough, barely will have time for studies. Shall consider first. Maybe laziness will stop me again.

How? He's working 3 days a week. Only meeting him on thursday this week. Friday going shopping spree again, wonder how could i without any cash.

Ciaos~

I've tried my best,

Now its not up to me.

Half a year has passed us by...

It's been so long,
That i haven't seen your face.
I'm tryna' be strong,
But the strength i have is washing away.

Yesterday was at Gabrielle's crib, fun time dancing and all.

Seriously, b'cause of you, i have totally no mood for anything. It's been three days and not a single text from you. Did i really made you that mad ? Comeon, just tell me okay ? I really need to hear from you, really. I'm getting really worried.

Need to shop to take my mind off things, shall go shop again tomorrow. Let's see how much i'll be spending tomorrow. I need a job. Pronto.

Gay, imissyou and i shan't say sorry again. B'cause you know how i feel don't you ? Let the heart to the talking.


Happy 6 monthsary love.
I'd be happier if i was hearing from you.

Idk what caused the sudden change in you, one second you were fine, the other you were down in the dumps. So i really cause everything ? Why don't you believe me ? The drinking habit is like so hard to get rid off but i'm cutting down. And i don't puff anym. Sigh, i feel like fuck after that text you sent me youknow ? You don't right, b'cause you only care about how hurt you feel. Hell yah, i'm writing it down here alr. You said you don't want your girlf to climb over your head, what about me ? Okay, you may say that you care, but don't you think its too much ?

Have you ever tried putting yourself in my shoes, i tried putting me in yours. I know where i went wrong but only time can change me, its not like these things can be corrected overnight. But maybe, a leopard never changes its spots.

Well, i'm saying this out of anger, it's up to you to correct your emotions when you see this. If i mean it or don't, it's up to you to see it. I really hope thing changes. Monday was superbly lovely, i want it to remain that way. But things never go as you please right ? So maybe it'll be the other way round...

Nothing else left to say. Lets start the silence shall we ?
Ciaos~

If life was a sewer,
where would you take me ?

Sorry peeps for not updating my blog, am sooooo tight schedule. But stilll lazing around quite an awful lot though... I spent freaking $80 dollars yesterday on idk what -.- But bought a pair of heels and a high waist skirt. still need to get , High waist jeans, high waist shorts, heels and flats. But, no no moolahs~! ): Met Jiesen and Jiahao at lakeside MRT, i was late =/ Then actually planning to meet mint and yingren 12.30 but end up reach lakeside at 12.30 then reach the orchard MRT at 1 plus ? Reached and stroll around looking for mint and yingren at Taka. Homed after that.







































You see see see the red colour word "naughty" there? I was like taking the picture and just nice it was there. Nice huh~! Okay, i don't usually take pictures at this angle but i decided to try it though. Nice or not ? heh. Today early morning went out to meet gab . Westmall for breakfast and slacked at skatepark. Wanted to do some stunts but ended up spraying paint. I wanna skate, looks cool. Did some action on the skateboard which sharifah said her grandmama can do ._.

Going for shopping on saturday again, but its different, it's with mum, which means. more money to spend. I very " see money, open eye" (translate in chinese). Ciaos~ I need to go for my bath. I'm smelly nao =/

I'm trying to be strong,

But the strength i have is washing away.

Seriously languish.

Failed only science this term. How am i going to get into pure science and get my A maths?Got chased out of class my literature teacher b'cause i was being defiant? And i shouted at her when i was standing outside. Like whats her f problem? I'm alr outside right? Stroll around school then she gave me a talk about those shits saying that i alr have a very bad record and those shits i'm tired of hearing

I cried today, infront of two person.Felt so shag all of a sudden again. Where were you when i need you A ?Okay, just shutup, everyone of you...

After school, as usuals. After awhile went peng to bus stop b'cause he going meet someone ^^ I need to shop, real badly.Should i work ?
Ciaos~

Even when the sun don't shine for you,
I will.

2 days after fourteenth.

Saturday went out and celebrated with baby,jiesen and yingren. Had planned to go ECP but in the end we went around orchard area. Bought some stuffs. And i got cake in the face and hair at starbucks ! So random. Was taking a fag till they came out with a cake =/

Trained to Clementi then bused to WCP.Took some pictures but cant upload due to my lagging of blogger ): Then played and eat and high till night. I swear i was sweating like shit and i didn't like it.Anyw, i wanna thanks debbie dear for coming at the last minute. Iloveyou.

That night, directly at 12 when it was my birthday. My mom freaking shouted at me to stop lazing around all day and using so much phone. And gay didn't wish me till 13 minute later. I cried. Like so fuck, my own mother didn't wished me. so i cried myself to sleep.

Went ECP with family then slacked and took pictures. Night came and Sakae Sushi, here i comeee ! (: LOL, Daddy ordered hot sakae for me. It was like. HOLY MACKEROL I WANT SOME MOREEE ! But it's like 10.99 for one small glass._. Bill came and it was expensive, but wth i did enjoy myself.

Tuesday morning went to gay's house. Went to buy mac and rent some discs.Was sweating like hell so went to his house and shower. The rest is classified =/ Thanks gay for such a great day. I swear the whole time i was laughing having stomach cramps.

I wanna give a big big thanks and hugs to those who wished me happy birthday,be it at the tagboard or a text message.Thanks you guys for remembering. And those whom i thought you'd remember. Where are you? But nah, it's okay. Love you guys so !And thanks gay for telling me the truth that she was there. Although it did make me feel different but it doesn't matter. You don't feel the same right =/
Ciaos~!

You promised that our love will forever remain,
I chose to believe you.
The brightest star is me,
I hope you'll never take it away.
Some may not understand. =/ But boy,i just miss you so.